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639. Update on knee surgery…
So I go in last week to do the pre-op for my knee replacement surgery which was (notice I said was) scheduled for next Tuesday, February 17th, and they call me the next day to say that my EKG was abnormal and that I need to see a cardiologist. Thankfully there were able to arrange an appointment with the cardiologist for today. This quote in the photo below seemed to be just right for an update about all this since it talks about the heart and left and right issues.
The electrical impulse that moves from the right side of the heart to the left should create a simultaneous spark or beat or whatever they call it, and mine isn’t. There’s a split second delay between the firing on the right side and the firing on the left side. The good news is that the cardiologist said it wasn’t a long enough delay to be serious at this time and that sometimes it happens as we age. He went on to say that more than likely it would not require the insertion of a pacemaker. But just to be sure there is no heart disease that might be causing it, he wants me to have a stress test and the quickest that it could be scheduled was next Tuesday the day I was supposed to have the surgery. Thus, now pending any negative results from the stress test, the surgery has been rescheduled for Thursday, February 26th. In the meantime the pain in my knee (actually now it’s pretty much my entire left leg and foot) has increased significantly. That’s why I’ve not been able to read many of your posts and have been slow to answer comments and emails for the last several days. I hate that and sadly with this increased amount of pain, that may continue right up until the surgery. So please forgive me and keep those prayers a comin’. I am going to try however to keep up with a daily post as that helps keep my mind off the pain, the tedium, and the anxiety. I know the Lord has a reason for everything and I trust that He is watching over me and guiding these events, but the going is still very tough at times especially since this and another health issue have plagued me for over a year and both are exhausting. Hopefully, I will be back some day soon. Much love, Natalie
**Image via Pinterest
Running in High Heels
Mary Perez at Reflections of the Heart asked me to introduce my readers to her new book. To that end I’m including a picture of the cover and a synopsis of the story Mary tells about her life. Above is the link to the site where you can pre-order her book, and I’ll bet you will after reading this synopsis of her narrative.
My life growing up in the 60’s mirrored the thrashing and howling winds of a Miami hurricane, and the sting of Hoboken’s winter bitter cold. When my parents separated, Divorce was the given name of a new storm brewing, with me as a three-year old, at its center. Because the judge awarded my older brother RUBEN to live with our father BENNY, our mother, RUTH was granted sole custody of me. Neglect, filth, kidnappings, racial tension, and alcoholism were my constant companions. Hunger pangs, roaches and mice infestation became my unwelcome companions. Intimately acquainted with an empty stomach, I also carried hunger in my heart, starving for love. I became a teen bride to DONNY, a man from the Caribbean who was twice my age. His melodious accent and take-charge attitude deceived me into believing I had found a better life. “I bought and paid for you, gal,” he reminded me often in drunken rages that escalated with each drink. His words pierced my heart and whirled in my head like a tape stuck on replay. Donny, I discovered, was a ruthless, raging alcoholic. I suffered under his possessive, domineering hand and physical abuses in secret. Our volatile home became so chaotic that Child Protective Services took our small girls to foster homes for three wretched months. In 1982, at the age of twenty-two, I had four children fathered by Donny, and felt like a single mother. Eavesdropping on a strangely timed phone call early one morning, I heard the sultry voice of a strange woman he was calling “baby,” and my fragile heart was broken apart. Again. That night when he returned drunk, I stared down the barrel of Donny’s .357 Magnum, with a single thought running through my head: God, I can’t die! Protect my babies! Thank God, he missed. He left me on the staircase landing, a gaping hole in the plasterboard and my ears ringing from the gunshot. Terrified and alone, I turned to the God of my grandparents where I found solace and healing. As my faith grew, I discovered redemption and self-worth, and learned to forgive, even after my fifteen-year marriage ended in painful divorce. After a year of figuring out how to stand on my own two feet as a single mother of four, I met Mark who became my helpmate. Mark’s stability, unconditional love, and acceptance for my children and me restored my hope and renewed my dreams. It became an aphrodisiac I could no longer resist. Three years later, our marriage marked the beginning of my long awaited happily ever after. But I was not prepared to face the ominous cloud—in the form of my ex-husband—to re-enter my life. That I survived is startling; that I thrived is miraculous.
Dreams
638. Love has no desire but to fulfill itself. To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving. ~Khalil Gibran
What greater thing is there for two human souls
than to feel that they are joined together
to strengthen each other in all labor,
to minister to each other in all sorrow,
to share with each other in all gladness,
to be one with each other
in the silent unspoken memories?
~George Eliot (Mary Anne Evans)
Close your eyes, baby
Follow my heart
Call on the memories
Here in the dark
We’ll let the magic
Take us away
Back to the feelings
We shared when they played:
In the still of the night
Hold me darlin’, hold me tight,
Oh so real, so right
Lost in the fifties tonight
These precious hours
We know can’t survive
But love’s all that matters
While the past is alive
Now and for always
Till time disappears
We’ll hold each other…
~Excerpted lines from “Lost in the 50’s Tonight” recorded
by Ronnie Milsap and written
by Seals, Troy Harold/Reid, Mike/Parris, Fredericke
Follow God’s example; therefore, as dearly loved children and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave Himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God. ~Ephesians 5:1 ✝
**Images via Pinterest; collage created by Natalie
637. Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end. ~Author Unknown
I arise from dreams of thee
In the first sweet sleep of night,
When the winds are breathing low,
And the stars are shining bright.
~Percy Bysshe Shelley
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)
~Excerpted lines from a poem
by e.e. cummings
The Lord appeared to us in the past saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness. ~Jeremiah 31:3 ✝
**Image via Pinterest
636. Painters use red like spice. ~Derek Jarman
across morning skies and through misty white clouds.
It’s fierceness is felt when the hot summer sun
reddens the body with its feverish intensity.
Red is the thorn that pricks the fingers,
But it’s also the rose whose aroma is sweet.
~Edited lines by Sunny Summers
Fire-flicker red –
Red runs through your head
When you’re angry-est.
Red is a big rubber ball.
Red is the giant-est
Colour of all.
Red is a signal; red is a shout,
Ever so loudly it says, “Watch out!”
Red is a show-off,
No doubt about it –
But can you imagine
Living without it?
~Edited verses by Mary O’Neill
635. Red is the color that makes my heart sing. ~ Author Unknown
Red is the taste of a ripe, luscious strawberry,
and red the breast of a robin flying high.
Red’s also the crimson glow of Rudolph’s nose,
and red is the color of St. Nicholas’ suit.
Red are boxes of chocolate on Valentine’s Day,
and red is the shiny ruby that cries out to be bought.
Red are the garnet embers of a crackling fire,
and red is a feeling of safety with the ones you love.
Red is hard and stubborn.
Red will never give in
Even when it needs to.
Red has the brawn of an ox,
The skill of a pride of lions,
And the diligence of a colony of ants.
Red does not back down or grow weary.
Red stands his ground firmly.
Red is optimistic.
Red is like a harvest of fresh raspberries:
Satisfyingly and deliciously juicy.
Red is charming and romantic.
~Edited verses by Sunny Summers
Whoever pursues righteousness and love finds life, prosperity, and honor. ~Proverbs 21:21 ✝
**Images via Pinterest; collages created by Natalie
The Strength of Contentment
Work with the abilities
you have, without envy
for in contentment
comes strength
and wisdom
to use the gifts God
gave you to live
a life with purpose
and serenity.











