1455. Update…

Man is a knot into which relationships are tied. ~Antoine de St. ExupéryScreen Shot 2018-08-15 at 4.35.13 PM.png

I don’t know about others, but when I feel as though my end may be near, it’s to my loved ones that my thoughts go. Thus my selection for last night’s Wordless Wednesday photos and these pics today. This is my daughter who was nine years in coming into our marriage and who has been a blessing and a constant joy ever since. She is the knot that ties all my relationships together.

Today was the first time I’d seen my oncologist since before my radiation treatments began in July. To prepare for that appointment today, a Cat-Scan was done last Friday to check on the progress of a new lung nodule discovered on an x-ray in April when they did the lumpectomy. Some nodules had already been found six years ago when I had my stroke, but they ruled them as benign at the time. However, because the new one was somewhat larger than those earlier ones. they did a Pet-Scan on my chest in early May. The result came back with a metastatic concern note on it because of the malignant tumor that had been removed from my breast and the fact that I am HER2 positive. At that time the surgeon seemed to think that a biopsy should be done right away, but the oncologist over ruled that recommendation because a biopsy could pop (collapse) my lung and the protocol was just that the nodule needed to be observed. So all summer long I’ve waited for today’s appointment to find out whether this new nodule is of concern or not. The new Cat -Scan from Friday showed that it and a few of the older ones had grown a little but the growth is under 25% so the protocol is still that they just need to be watched which means I don’t have to go back for 6 months when another Cat-Scan will be done. Whatever they are, according to the oncologist, they are very slow growing at this point and may never amount to anything, but if the growth rate does ever exceed 25% then a biopsy would be the only way to find out for sure if the nodules are malignant. Although I wish that they could have definitively been ruled out as non-malignant now, I am at least relieved that I have a 6 month reprieve from more tests, more treatments, and more new meds. Since I am SLOWLY but surely recovering from the horrible affects of the radiation, maybe by then I won’t be so fragile (the word the oncologist used to describe me today) and the things will not grown any more. I pray it be so in Jesus’ name! Amen! Thanks for all your kind concerns and prayers. The Lord hears every one of them, and He is still and forever will be a constant and abiding Presence in my life. Love, Natalie

If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord. ~Romans 14:8  ✝

52 thoughts on “1455. Update…

  1. Your daughter is beautiful, like mother, like daughter.
    Good to hear about your reprieve, Natalie. I’ll keep praying for non-malignant, as we all need you right here. You give joy and beauty, and beside your garden needs you too.
    I get another treatment next week and then a PET scan the following week, I hope the result is good news. I still go through frequent bouts of fatigue and have not been able to concentrate on writing any stories. I have also lost 1500 followers but if I ever get done with this I will build up my audience again, hopefully.
    Take care missy and have fun. xoxo

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    • Oh I pray you get good news Patricia and that you begin to feel better soon. And yes your followers will be back when you are able to weave your wonderful stories again. We both need to be gentle and living with ourselves until we heal. Huge hugs and much love, N❤️❤️❤️xoxoxo xoxoxo xoxo xoxoxo

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  2. One thing is certain, well two cause there’s God’s love, but the other thing is that even though your body needs rest, your spirit has never been and never will be “fragile.” Praying for continuing recovery and brighter days ahead. ❤

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  3. Good news, Natalie. Radiation takes a lot of energy out of one, I had it about 12 years ago and I felt extremely fragile. I also hated the tests and continual Doctor’s visits.
    The main thing is that you take very good care of yourself.
    By the way you have a lovely daughter, just like you!
    Sending you lots love, light and prayers sweet friend! xoxoxoxoxo

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  4. Somehow I missed this situation you have been going through. Glad for the good report, and pray that in six months you can see “proof” that shows little if any growth. God is good. You are brave. God with you make a magnificent twosome so march on this road with him. 😀

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  5. Dear Natalie my name is Deborah I have commented on your page before. I absolutely love your page. I want you to know that you are in my prayers and thoughts. Never give in because God is working out His perfect plan in your life and your loved ones at the moment. On Sunday August 5th; a couple of weeks ago my Husband went unexpectedly home to be with his Lord in a motor bike accident. Of course I am slowly coming to terms with it. But I firmly believe that something good will come out of it all. I sincerely desire for God to get all the glory, all the honour and all of the praise! I have no inkling of your own challenging situation. I am praying God’s healing touch and overwhelming love and grace and peace upon you today and always and that God will continue to strengthen your beautiful heart. Behold I do a new thing – not sure where that is from but I do not believe that God is finished with you yet. Zechariah 8:13 from the Message Bible – Don’t be afraid. Keep a firm grip on what I’m doing. Love and blessings from Deborah Garrott in Australia.

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    • Oh thank you so much for this heartwarming and reassuring comment! I am so sorry to hear that you recently lost your husband. May the Lord spread a blanket of peace and comfort over you while you grieve this profoundl


    • Heavy loss. Deborah I had a stroke 6 years ago and 9 days later walked out of the hospital with no real discernible damage. It was a miracle and I knew the Lord wasn’t finished with me then and I know that He is still using me if for no other reason that be a strong witness through this trial even if my life is ebbing away. Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. Do you have a blog? Love and hugs, Natalie❤️❤️❤️xoxoxo xoxoxo


    • Sorry my first reply was in two parts. And I came back to let you know how much this touched me as I sense the Lord’s presence in your reaching out to me from so far away. Thanks again so much for answering the call from the Holy Spirit’s prompting. May you be amply blessed by your kindness that came from your grieving heart❤️❤️❤️xoxoxo xoxoxo xoxo


      • Hi Natalie Thank you for replying- I am sorry I don’t have a blog just an e-mail address. I am a luddite when it comes to technology. I don’t have a proper face book page – my husband put one up for me but I refused to co-operate. My e-mail address is adullam1@tpg.com.au Once again thank you so very much for your reply- with God’s blessings and love- Deborah.

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      • Deborah, I believe that everyone who crosses our path is no an accidental occurrence but instead one of divine purpose and intent so when I get back on my computer I’ll send you mine email address too and hope to stay in touch with you. I answer my comments on my cell phone before I go to bed at night, but I don’t receive or send emails from it. Blessings and hugs, Natalie❤️❤️❤️
        PS: How did you happen to find my blog?


  6. Hello Natalie I wanted to find a christian poem and Deborah Ann came up in my search. Just out of curiosity especially christian pages and then I found yours through hers. I hope you don’t mind. I will look forward to receiving an e-mail from you. I started playing ‘scrabble with friends’ app on my phone it is only an i 4. I have recently and surprisingly discovered that a couple of them are christians also. Still at sixes and sevens here and hanging onto God by my fingernails! Everyone is telling me to be strong and comfort my 3 sons (adult- youngest is 27) so trying to be brave and not cave in. Just gotta stay focussed becase I know that God has His plan and He has the victory. There is a story about how my Husbands’ body was found. Not enough room here. I will tell you sometime however. I must keep believing that God’s truth will be revealed and that only God will get all the glory, all the honour and all the praise that is due to Him. My sons are not acknowledging God although we did raise them as christians. Our prayers are for God to soften their hearts- God’s blessings and love to you- Deborah.

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